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22 April 2009

Day Two Hundred Fifteen.

Heartache and tears.

Another goodbye and they never get easier.

Whenever Jason departs I always feel overwhelmed with a feeling of alone. You walk away, get in the car, drive, and go home. The whole time you are doing each of these oh so normal goodbye steps the sadness is even greater especially when it is the most important person in your life you are walking away from. The car is empty and you are driving alone. You go home to empty and complete silence and maybe it is just me but this is where I insert many fine words of choice in my head about the Army and how much I really love them on departure days ha.

On top of the sadness I have yet to sleep more than an hour although now I am feeling like passing out. I was able to text some with Jason too which always helps. I must say on top of the million reasons I love him his messages and encouragement for me when he goes is just one more...

"I'm so sorry you have to go through all this pain and heartache baby, I wish it wasn't always like this and I am glad it wont be. I have the best times ever with you."

"I'm so blessed to have you and I know what we have is real. You're my best friend, my everything."

"I appreciate how strong you are and couldn't ask for anyone better."

10 comments:

Army Duck said...

Hugs... it's the home stretch now hun, each day is a real day closer to having him home full time.

Hang in there.

d.a.r. said...

Oh sweetie, hang in there!! No more goodbyes now, just a big fabulous hug waiting for you in Sept.!

Kristen said...

Yuck! Goodbyes are the worst! I am never able to sleep after he leaves. You are closer to the end now though! Buy yourself something pretty or bad for you (like ice cream). That always makes me feel better!

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Hang in there! You can do it!

Those messages are too sweet! Just think you've only gotta make it till Sept.

High Heels & Combat Boots said...

What sweet texts!! Hope ya'll had fun together!

lola said...

Keep your head up! :( My heart aches for you and I know that awful silence all too well. You only have a little bit further to go! :)

Lisa said...

I can't pretend I know what it's like, but your words touched me, and so did the texts from your wonderful hubby. September is coming quickly... although it doesn't feel that way.

I on the other hand, would love September to be far away, since P and my friends will all be deploying in mid-August.

Michelle said...

I hate the emptiness after walking away from them at the airport. Praying the last few months of the deployment pass quickly!

megan said...

Ohhh i hate goodbyes!! I get very overwhelmed too. But not much longer now! Hang in there!

(army)Wife said...

*sigh* yeah.....

Only a few more months...only a few more months...and then he's home :)