Heartache and tears.
Another goodbye and they never get easier.
Whenever Jason departs I always feel overwhelmed with a feeling of alone. You walk away, get in the car, drive, and go home. The whole time you are doing each of these oh so normal goodbye steps the sadness is even greater especially when it is the most important person in your life you are walking away from. The car is empty and you are driving alone. You go home to empty and complete silence and maybe it is just me but this is where I insert many fine words of choice in my head about the Army and how much I really love them on departure days ha.
On top of the sadness I have yet to sleep more than an hour although now I am feeling like passing out. I was able to text some with Jason too which always helps. I must say on top of the million reasons I love him his messages and encouragement for me when he goes is just one more...
"I'm so sorry you have to go through all this pain and heartache baby, I wish it wasn't always like this and I am glad it wont be. I have the best times ever with you."
"I'm so blessed to have you and I know what we have is real. You're my best friend, my everything."
"I appreciate how strong you are and couldn't ask for anyone better."