18 May 2009
Day Two Hundred Forty-One.
Maybe it is something more major like all the recent events of this weekend or something more minor like our phone call being disconnected today and not hearing back from him, but my gosh am I freakin' emotional tonight. I took my mom to the airport this afternoon so she could go be with the family for my great grandma's funeral and my dad is out of town on business this week. So an empty house and just me and might I mention how quiet it is? Blah. I honestly think with everything I am doing right now to prepare for my move back to Alaska along with the stresses of the economy pushing me more at work I feel just overwhelmed. I sometimes feel bad that I can even use that term because I know Jason has a lot more on his plate than I could ever have,but I just feel like sometimes I am cracking. I sometimes wish he was emotionally available to me when I need someone to talk to or when I am feeling down. I miss being able to have him atleast a phone call away if he wasn't coming home at night. Things just seem like they are hitting a funk for me this week. Is it the eight month funk because I thought it would be a much better only 1/3 left to go type of funk? I just don't know but I do hope tomorrow is better. :)