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22 July 2009

Day Three Hundred Six.

The other day the doctor called to tell me my pap came back abnormal and that I had tested for a high risk virus that could be a chance of cervical cancer and that she wanted me to come in right away for a colposcopy and biopsy on the area. The only problem other than the news? I'm not in Michigan I am back in Alaska. She asked me to call the hospital here to talk to my PCM and see about faxing the results so they could see me. I was pretty much stunned because A. I have never had an abnormal biopsy and B. Cervical cancer, really? I called and left a message for my PCM and the nurse called back within twenty minutes. By this time I was pretty hysterical and she did a good job of calming me down and telling me the process and the fact that they wouldn't know until they ran tests on the area and that it could turn out to be better news. I called the doctor back in Michigan to give her the number after that. My nurse called again Monday afternoon to see if the clinic had called since she sent my results as soon as she got them being "high risk." She asked if I was having abdominal pain or headaches?! Great. At this point I asked nothing because I am scared out of my mind. So women's health called Tuesday morning to set up my appointment for August 3rd. I do understand the process will be pretty common for many women but the fact that she explained the surgery after the area was tested scares me too. Shit I'm just scared and trying not to question all that I have been asked or that has been explained to me. I am worried that I may test positive for cervical cancer and Jason is thousands of miles away and alone I will have to face it. I just am trying to stay positive that it is something less serious and if it does end up being cancerous it is caught at an early stage.

If it is not one thing it seems like it is another lately.

19 comments:

Jessica said...

do you know how badly I want to jump on a plane to Alaska right now? I'm so sorry that you're going through this right now and even more sorry that you're going through this alone. I know it's hard but try and stay positive. They are probably giving you worst case scenerio. Will be thinking about you and praying for you every day!!

Rachael said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Hang in there1

BSS said...

I'm really sorry you're going through this, especially with your husband gone. I'll keep you in my prayers.

Crazy Shenanigans said...

Hang in there girl. I'm sure you're going to be fine!

Sara said...

I know it's hard to face this on your own right now, but abnormal pap smears are very common and they are just being cautious. Soon you'll have more answers and J back home with you and you will be ok.

lola said...

Hun, I'm so sorry to hear about this. I tested abnormal once and went through the colposcopy thing. It was really scary to hear "abnormal" "pre-cancerous" etc, but mine ended up being just fine.

I'm hoping that soon enough you'll be hearing that everything is just fine for you as well! xo

Rebecca said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Hopefully this is one of those situations where the doctors are being overly cautious. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

Terra said...

you are in my thoughts and prayers! try and stay positive...everything will be alright! This happened to me a few years ago, and everything is fine now!

JG said...

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this by yourself! Drs always give you the worst-case scenario. I'm praying for you!

Post Tenebras Lux said...

Oh, I'm so sorry! I will pray. Hugs. . . .

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry to hear all of this! I will keep you in my thoughts, and I hope that it's all just fine! Good luck!

Young Mom/Wife said...

I am incredibly sorry for you and will be thinking nothing but happy thoughts about your upcoming appointment!

MRS Jen McNeil said...

hang in there teresa!
im sure everything will be ok. say your prayers!( you know i will have you in mine)
take care
Jen

11whiskey said...

Teresa,
thanks for stopping by my blog and yes only 2 more weeks left in care package season for me! I hope that everything turns out ok at the Drs! I'll be praying for you!

<311W

Kiki said...

It must be so hard to be going through this without Jason there. I'm sure he wishes more than anything he could be back there with you. Luckily he will be very soon!

LilBoo said...

Hey Tsa, I went thru this year ago when I was still living back in MI. I had the colposcopy and biopsy done also and everything turned out normal. Abnormal pap smears are very common and ever since the first abnormal one I never had any more abnormal ones. I know you will be just fine and if you wanna talk you know where I am. Love ya girl!!

mewok said...

Oh no! I'm so sorry!! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers! Hopefully its just a mix up!

sassenach19 said...

I had the same problem too my honey. It's not so bad. My dr described it as a "pinchy crampy" (official medical terminology) an it was over. Just feels like bad cramps the rest of the day... Don't be too scared. You're a tough kid & I know you can do it!

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