The other day the doctor called to tell me my pap came back abnormal and that I had tested for a high risk virus that could be a chance of cervical cancer and that she wanted me to come in right away for a colposcopy and biopsy on the area. The only problem other than the news? I'm not in Michigan I am back in Alaska. She asked me to call the hospital here to talk to my PCM and see about faxing the results so they could see me. I was pretty much stunned because A. I have never had an abnormal biopsy and B. Cervical cancer, really? I called and left a message for my PCM and the nurse called back within twenty minutes. By this time I was pretty hysterical and she did a good job of calming me down and telling me the process and the fact that they wouldn't know until they ran tests on the area and that it could turn out to be better news. I called the doctor back in Michigan to give her the number after that. My nurse called again Monday afternoon to see if the clinic had called since she sent my results as soon as she got them being "high risk." She asked if I was having abdominal pain or headaches?! Great. At this point I asked nothing because I am scared out of my mind. So women's health called Tuesday morning to set up my appointment for August 3rd. I do understand the process will be pretty common for many women but the fact that she explained the surgery after the area was tested scares me too. Shit I'm just scared and trying not to question all that I have been asked or that has been explained to me. I am worried that I may test positive for cervical cancer and Jason is thousands of miles away and alone I will have to face it. I just am trying to stay positive that it is something less serious and if it does end up being cancerous it is caught at an early stage.
If it is not one thing it seems like it is another lately.