I am in the midst of all the medication and fun currently. I feel blotted, miserable, and emotional. J is on this emotional roller coaster ride with me...lucky man. He has been great and has kept the jokes pretty minimal. I am currently going to the doctor every other day and working my way up to the retrieval.
I am on a cocktail concoction of fertility medicine and could probably open my own pharmacy (seen above). Currently my daily dose looks something like this...
I am taking Gonal-F right now (my dose was 225iu but is now at 150iu). I am also taking three 75iu vials of Menopur a day (I started with one, moved to two, and am now on three). Also, 20 units of Lupron both morning and night. Slowly but surely I am becoming a pin cushion.
I have thought about putting a picture of my bruised stomach up as well but I will save you all the glory of that. Some days I feel hopeful and optimistic and other days I have a hard time believing we are in the 50% of this working. It has been a long hard road so far and I do not believe this is the end, but some days I wonder if we have waited long enough for good things to come and now is our time. It is a "ride" for sure over here. One minute I am having a conversation cool calm and collected and the next I am biting J's head off for upsetting and and then I am crying. Lawwwd I bet J is glad to be on duty tonight ha ha.
I don't want to jinx the progress and will know more tomorrow, but currently I have 17 follicles the doctor could see as of yesterday growing. I know all of those won't catch up when it gets to retrieval time or they won't all include an egg, but I am very blessed even with such aggressive treatment that I am somewhat responding. My biggest fear has yet to come. Nope, it was not the responding part it is the retrieval part. I am worried my eggs won't be of good quality, they won't fertilize, or something. We have never had a "step" go smoothly so it is really hard to think the biggest questionable part will.
Ahhh! Until next time,