I started taking birth control two days ago. It is the first step before our IVF process. I swore off birth control pills a few years ago telling J I would never take them again thinking that was my issue for not getting pregnant (insert laugh). I was really nervous taking it the first night because I am seriously worried about blood clots or something bad happening. I dislike any medicine in my body lol.
I have been talking to a few people that have gone through IVF in my area and listening to their medicine list has me freaked out. I actually couldn't sleep last night thinking about the amount of shots and things I will be taking for two weeks. I am extremely nervous going forward and putting my body through this. I actually almost woke up J to tell him I didn't want to anymore :(
I have a lot of what if's going on. What if it does not work, what if my FSH is too high and the cycle is cancelled, what if I do not produce follicles, what if all the embryos never turn out to be good ones, what if, what if, what if....Augh!
I am hopeful this is our answer, but even Jason asked the other night if I was nervous for all of it. I played it off cool and said, "Not really." Seriously though lol who wouldn't be? Continued prayers our way would be great.
Gosh if this did work I would be a mama! :) If it doesn't maybe we could get another dog? Then I would be well on my way to that crazy dog lady with all the dogs lol....
